In this dark room, everything is ok. The world needs to hear and see success stories, but ultimately each person, in his / her dark room, must experience this ‘everything is ok’. It doesn’t make for much of a movie or a story, but *this is it*. Not emphatically, but simply because this really is… Continue reading In The Dark Room
Tag: knowing my Self
Children, Philosophy, Meaning, and Joy
We were children. I used to love the conversations we had exchanging thoughts and ideas, my brother and I. We were on the terrace, talking. I shared some thought of wonderment with my brother. A what-if kind of thought. He said, “It’s all just mental masturbation.” I interpreted his statement as, “It’s all pointless, undesirable… Continue reading Children, Philosophy, Meaning, and Joy
Never and Forever Well-Formed
I think I might never heal — physically, mentally. Of course healing entails being OK with that. Then, when you are OK with that, they say you get to directly experience (and be) the whole Universe. That’s what I’m interested in. Some people talk of worshipping. I’m so uninterested in worshipping. Yes, this I have… Continue reading Never and Forever Well-Formed
Observing The Logic In Our Emotions
I am a huge ball of emotions. A huge potent ball of emotions. I research myself. I research myself by observing my emotions. That is why I wrote once: एहसासों की लड़ी है यह ज़िन्दगी एक एक एहसास को सहेज कर, समेट कर, धीरे धीरे आगे बढ़ती हूँ। कमरा बिखरा रह जाता है। Emotions have… Continue reading Observing The Logic In Our Emotions
Clues, Self-Awareness, Love
Love – that which we all seek. Even if we’ve convinced ourself that love is namby pamby weakness, we all seek love. We all want to be acknowledged, we all want to belong, we all want to contribute, and we all want to be our true selves. All of this is love. The ever-present quiet… Continue reading Clues, Self-Awareness, Love
The 12 Mysteries of Love
This is the story of a birthing. A story of Self-actualization. Coming into our own. And what does coming into our own mean? Accepting our own glory. Experiencing that we are lovable, as we are. Independent of the world and interdependent with the world. An acceptance and experiencing that fills us with an easy fulfillment.… Continue reading The 12 Mysteries of Love
It Works
“We might go to war with Pakistan,” my brother said at home one day. It was October 2016. My brother, an expert in analysing and forecasting market data (currency and other financial values), could see that the Rupee will weaken. Not just slightly, but a lot. He was sure of it. He told his customers… Continue reading It Works
A REPLACEMENT FOR THE SWIMMING POOL
Talk about first world problems in third world countries. A significant “loss” for me during this COVID time was that I was unable to go swimming. Swimming is important to me. I feel “at home” in the water. It is direct experiential evidence to me that we evolved from the oceans. When I swim more,… Continue reading A REPLACEMENT FOR THE SWIMMING POOL
They Came Flying From Far Away
It’s because of this doll-like thingy that she is holding and listening intently to — that’s why I chose this jigsaw puzzle that I’m doing these days. No, it’s not about romanticizing depression. It’s about that tiny voice of light and guidance that comes and speaks to you from out of nowhere, within the deepest… Continue reading They Came Flying From Far Away
Conversation (and discovery behind the mind)
So what did you discover behind the mind? Myself. It is thanks to Mummy and a tremendous conversation I had with her yesterday evening. But then who is Mummy and who am I? There is no place where Asha Murarka ends and Vani Murarka begins. There is one place in our conversation yesterday (life happens… Continue reading Conversation (and discovery behind the mind)